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Thursday, 05 November 2009

Foot (part 2)

Remember that other post about my foot being swollen? Yea, it turns out it was fractured! Crazy, right? That means I've been walking around on a fractured foot for about five weeks! After two x-rays and an MRI, the doctors finally found the crack in the bone. Ugh, such a long process. The funny thing is--I'm glad it's fractured! Now the doctors won't have to do a biopsy...

People ask me why/how it's fractured. My answer? I don't know. Honestly, I'm clueless. I'm a naturally clumsy person, so it could have been a number of reasons!

For the next four weeks, I'll be rockin' this shoe:

It's the latest trend, I tell ya!

Saturday, 24 October 2009

Money Matters

... and by matters, I mean the noun--not the verb :)
(I feel like a nerd using Internet Explorer just so I can use keyboard shortcuts on my Xanga entry...)
I work, yes, but I honestly do not care about the money. I just like being there! To some, this would be unbelievable since everyone wants money. /eye-roll.
My mom keeps telling me to quit, but I don't want to . I'm beginning to think she's just tired of driving me back and forth . I just love it there too much to quit! The aroma of fresh baked cookies, the people, the atmosphere, everything! Everything is just ... jolly.
Since I began working, I have only gone shopping once, with a total of $38 . The rest of my money goes to school and food--and I never realized how much food takes up ! Either it's my diet, or things are just getting pricey these days .
Random blog, I know, but I've been noticing the amount of negativity my previous blogs have been giving out. They make me seem sad. I'm not a pessimistic person. Honestly! hahaha ehh...
To those of you who are reading this blog TODAY:
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Print out that coupon ASAP, enjoy it, and have a nice day!
The weather is too LOVELY!!!!!!!!

Friday, 23 October 2009

Rx

Medical shows make me feel like a druggie.

Whenever the doctors begin to call out medicines, I say to myself, "I've been on that before..." Be it current or temporary, I've had it.
While doing research on my syndrome, I've read that some other patients have shown a complete 180° turnaround within a year or two. The thing is ... they were on the exact same meds I was/am on!
I'm going on seven years now, and doctors are still trying to figure out what to do with me.
Have I been misdiagnosed?
That's a scary thought. I try not to think about it too much...

Thursday, 22 October 2009

Foot

I haven't gone to school all week. Bah!
Edit
H'okay, so the reason why I haven't gone to school is because my foot is swollen. Weird, right? Haw haw.
It started out as a pain below my toe joints. A week (or two?) later, my foot began to swell. No, I did not hit my foot on anything, nor did anything bite me. It's just an odd, sore, red swelling that puzzles my rheumatologist.
"You're not an easy patient, are you?"
Yeah, sorry about that .
SOOOOOO, I've spent the whole week at home resting my foot. According to my classmates, I'm not missing out on anything "important," though I am beginning to cause people to worry. I have a tendency to randomly hospitalize myself .
Poking my foot leaves indentations. It's quite funny, actually ... in a weird way .

An MRI Tuesday should clear things up .

Monday, 05 October 2009

Oddish

I did something odd today.
I came home from school ... and cried.
Flipped through my Bible a bit ... and cried.
Asked myself what was wrong ... and cr-no, I didn't cry.

But seriously, wtf? No, I was not hardcore sobbing. I just felt overly-overwhelmed, for lack of a better word. I'm feeling scared, paranoid, worried, anxious, and stressed. The problem is I don't know why, or of what.

I'm thinking about quitting my job. I really don't want to, but what are my options?

I'm beginning to second guess my future colleges and majors.
Oh, no.

I'm ... just lost. Mesozoic Epoch lost.
That makes sense to me, so hush.

So what did I do? I made myself a bowl of hot, steaming noodles. Tha's righ'! While eating, I realized a bad habit of mine. I don't wait on my food to cool down, nor do I breathe or fan said food to speed up the process (and unlike a certain family I know/knew, I do no throw ice cubes into my soup!). I simply inhale my re-hydrated noodles and suffer the burns. Sometimes, tears are shed. This happens in the school cafeteria as well. Shame.
Two slices of bacon and a nectarine followed.

While on the subject of food, I had a cupcake for lunch. It tasted strangely of alcohol. Seriously.

Okay, that's enough. This isn't a calorie-counting food blog. Although, I am feeling a bit "fluffy." /cough

CHOCOLATE CHIP CHEESECAKE BROWNIES ARE SO DROOL WORTHY :Q_

I'm at a loss for words, there's nothing to say
I sit in silence wondering, what led me to this place?
How did my heart become so lifeless and cold?
Where did the passion go?
When all my efforts seem like chasing the wind
I've used up all my strength, and there's nothing left to give
I've lost the feeling and I'm numb to the core
I can't fake it anymore

I'm in need of resurrection.

I feel better now :)